I’ve locked myself in a very dark place;
They gave me a key, but I’ve chosen to stay.
I cannot forget the look on your face–
It’s followed me here. I cannot get away.
The cold has left both my lips turning blue;
My eyes have gone puffy from tears that I’ve shed.
My heart grows heavier with thoughts of you;
I don’t know when I started to lose my head.
When did I curse what I’d once held so dear?
When did I start spiraling out of control?
Didn’t I hear what I needed to hear?
Why couldn’t I have just let them cleanse my soul?
There’s nothing to do in the dark but think,
And play your sins over again in your head.
Darkness rose up, and I let myself sink;
I am a snake. Perhaps this foul skin will shed.
I wish to disappear without a trace;
You think you can call it, but this is no bluff.
I’ve locked myself in a very dark place,
But to me, it could never be dark enough.